How long does it take to get my head around what my heart is longing for? Tonight's disaster came in the form of a HUGE amount of ice cream. My reason? I screwed up with my mobile plan coz my phone flicked from wifi to data. It's cost a small fortune (for us) which means another fortnight of not much cash. So, as per usual, I reach for the comfort of food.
But not only that, I also forgot to collect my son from kindy today. I don't know what's going on. I am forgetting the most basic things. Things I do every day. And I am starting to worry....
But the vicious cycle I am on means I turn to food. I really hate myself for it too. I know I am better than this and deserve more than the life I am giving myself. And yet I am failing every day.
In all this though, I KNOW that tomorrow is another day and each day will bring it's own trials. And I have the choice to do things differently. So my goal for tomorrow is small. All I am going to do is try. Coz that's all I have.
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