Here I go again!

So here I am, back at this point, AGAIN.  I start really well, and a month down the track I fall off the wagon and then it takes 6 months to get back on again.  In the meantime I put the weight on, become more disillusioned with myself, find more excuses to over eat.  Obviously I have something really wrong with my thought patterns, but I can't seem to get off this roller coaster (incidentally, I hate roller coasters, but that's a whole other, embarrassing story).

Honestly, I am not really sure how to go about being healthy.  My sister has this amazing ability to stick to plans, and I am quite envious of this.  Must for me, I prefer a more simple, less strict, approach.  I guess I am wanting to lose weight, while still enjoying my life.  My problem is figuring out self control, portion control, etc.  I have tried so many diets, and fail each time.

So here I am.  It's the start of a new day, and I am sure I will figure it out one day.  But how do I overcome the day to day battles of over eating, of depression, of low self esteem.  I am aware a lot of the issues over lap and I just want to figure out the trigger so I can finally make some progress.  But it's all so hard.  But being fat is harder.

So this is it.  This is me starting again.  Again.  But this time I am going to share why I want to loose weight, to help keep me focused..

1. I want to feel pretty again
2. I want my husband to be proud of me,
3. I want my kids to NEVER be ashamed of me.
4. I want to be healthy
5. I want to be fit.

So here is my new journey.  This time?